I am

GROWING UP IS WHO WE ARE

by

Russell R Ellis

I was a worthless sperm, killing to get into a women’s womb

I grew up, I made it, I’ll be a baby soon, that’s now what I am

I was a sperm, no longer am, don’t put me into a punishment tomb

It is now the next step, reward me as I grow, it isn't my plan

growing baby, in a woman’s womb, no worries, just bliss

coming out scared to death, digging in my mouth, wham

terrifying urge to breath the breath of life, reward with a kiss

It's always the next step, reward me for who I now am

life will start with urges, curiosity, then an experiment

each stage turns us into a different person as we grow

you will never be that sperm, that stage went

growing up never ends, stages continue, change is slow

from the beginning fate cons the future to punish that sperm of past

it's con is closure, but closure only ends with a quick goodby, move on

forced to be hurt by the terrifying painful challenges created by Gods cast

reward the future, except the past without judging the failures, they are gone

GUILTY BY ASSOCIATION

Why don't we make a law to make, you need to be castrated you, or cut off your balls, against the law, with a 1 year in prison? Not just because of freedom of speech, but because then we would have to put all who say similar things in prison also, men and women; Things like, you need to be raped with a knife in the vagina, or make the N word illegal with 1 year in prison, for the same reason, it would put both blacks and Whites in prison for a year so both Blacks and Whites would have to want that. No law can be made that can't be enforced equally on everyone, yet special interests groups have gotten bad laws made that can't be enforced equally on everyone, and the ones they can't get made legally anymore, they simply make them so a person is guilty by association, so if they say I'll grab your balls, your guilty of enjoying grabbing guys balls or scrotum, or or saying grab your vagina or p_ssy or c_nt.

Guilty by association is something that probably began with religion long ago to keep people from saying what they called bad, nasty, or naughty words. They would associate the word with something nasty and give the bad word a new name, and when they got sick of it made another word they liked and made that other word nasty also. It is called brainwashing. Many remember the days of the Red Scare when all Americans were afraid they would be brainwashed by Russia and later by our own country; CHURCH COMITY, MUST READ, THE RED SCARE INFO. The special interest groups were all exposed of using guilty by association back then, but we got lazy and took our eye off the crooks, creeps, and corrupt within our government and the special interest groups, and they used guilty by association to keep us from discussing, researching and finding the truth, taking away our right to think for ourselves by the censorship this caused.

We were also drugged by encouraging us to enjoy drinking booze that put us into blurring state of not caring about the things we should have been aware of. We won't be the first country leered by creeps and taken over before anyone knew what was going on, and I fear we won't be the last. They simply put us to sleep, with spoil's and turn us into spoiled brats, accusing each other of everything, like we were the only innocent person alive. And we were manipulated like puppets sense the Vietnam war. Students in school were once taught in school social in the 9th grade about  Hate Rumors so we would know if we were being tricked by half truths. Not knowing about hate rumors is what cause us to become victims of guilt by association.

Soon we will wake up and wonder what we allowed to happen. 

 

ATTENTION VETERANS

 ATTENTION VETERANS

LINKS FIXED

Because of an agent orange news update from the VA it appears they have learned that problem was far worse then they thought. I had a website devoted to agent orange but it was destroyed by hackers, so will start one here for you. The VA website is hard to navigate so I will post links to the places you will want to see. First will be the VA main area on  Agent Orange so you can browse around to find more things you might need to see. Then I will list links to important things like the water being contaminated in Camp Lejeune, in North Carolina. So all the Marines from the 1950 through 1980 were exposed to it. In fact it has become so bad that most of us troops were exposed and sounds like everyone of will soon be automatically be service connected for that period of time. Then I will add other stuff you should know about, like Dioxin causes lumps called fatty tissue growing on you body, I have one small one and two large ones, that the dioxin causes. I will add photos from my old website if I can find the copies. Those of you have been told it is fatty tissue but I have one they said was fatty tissue that they now say is a hernia, I think an attempt to change my records, but I have already had one huge one removed from my spine by the VA. Remember those fatty tissues are tumors that can turn into cancer, its just tumors on the outside.

I had 1 like this removed by VA

I have this 1

I have this on the back my neck also

The Ukraine President was poisoned with dioxin by Russia

http://www.reuters.com/article/us-ukraine-yushchenko-dioxin-idUSL118481020080611

VA PUBLIC HEALTH WEBSITE

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CAMP LEJEUNE EXPOSURE
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EXPOSURE LOCATIONS
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EXPOSURE CONDITIONS
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FREEDOM

Total freedom is reserved for wild animals, they can eat, are eaten, raped and kill each other without worries of breaking any law. Supremacy is reserved for herds in the totally free world, and Dictators in the  non-free parts of the civilized world. But this kind of freedom is not excepted in the civilized parts of the world honoring real freedom. No one wants to be ruled by the strongest or raped at will by someone stronger. So freedom rules the wild animal world, and equal rights rule the civilized world as it evolves.

So freedom in a free nation is a balance between laws and rights. The more laws we have the less rights we have. So our Constitution clearly says "Equal Justice For All. And we cannot have "Equal Justice for all," if any State makes a law that will cause discrimination against anyone and as our nation evolves I believe more people being discriminated against will receive there freedom Back. Or we will make excuses to get rid of more right's replaced by laws and soon lose all our freedom.

Nikita S Khrushchev  (1894-1971) led the Soviet Union during the height of the Cold War, serving as premier from 1958 to 1964, "Said The United States would become a Communist Nation without firing one shot."  The Sec. of Agriculture of the Eisenhower administration, Nikita Khrushchev said", You Americans are so gullible. No, you won't accept communism outright, but we'll keep feeding you small doses of Socialism until you will finally wake up and find that you already have communism. We won't have to fight you, we will so weaken your economy until you fall like overripe fruit into our hands.

For most of you this makes no sense, but for us who lived those times, knew all about it and I have known for many years after suffering the lies, misinformation, that never got reported on after the Protesters and Nixon turned on our combat troops. They failed to report the protesters that entered the military as office workers and screwed up our combat Troops records and those at the top refused to give bronze stars to those recommended for them; Like, I and four others fighting the enemy all night when incoming was so bad the chopper fighters couldn't fly with just the special forces mortars to fight with to put flares into the sky and fight of mortars and rockets surrounding our perimeter and fire support to defend our troops being overrun. We were recommended for the bronze star by the company D forces commander in Cantho. When the deserters were pardoned a law was made to force the military to update our records and pardon us also and I even gave them our names for the bronze star, it was ignored, but I got an updated discharge from temporary only. 

When the combat troop returned to stateside the nightmare became for many unbearable, for me; I came home with the combat infantryman's badge, we all in combat were so proud of and they tried to force me to give it up, and go to a school to learn how to earn a professional infantry badge. Now, no one could force us to give up our earned badges, so it was all harassment to punish us for fighting in Vietnam. Now, If we could have both metals, then I would have done it, But I would never give up my combat badge or other medals for any reason. I was a Section Sargent on a 105  mounted on a jeep and someone in my section told me he just talked to the company commander and told if he could get my stripes if he could get anything on me so they could get rid of my stripes. Well they finely got my strips because I refused to take that school for that badge.

I had no trust in the military or our government protecting me long before I left Vietnam, but what I and my brother saw and went threw totally destroyed me and him mentally, some say he committed suicide, running his car off an embankment, and I never recovered, whenever I would get close to trust someone would attack me. After I lost my strip, I was sent to a training place at a body shop to learn how to estimate accident cost to become an insurance adjuster that I wanted to become. I just started when a friend told me the CIA was trying to kill him and he needed mental help, but we both were turned down for mental health treatment as they considered it a weakness as Tromp call it, so he wanted me to help get him home, because he couldn't contact them to come and take him to someone who could treat him where he could feel safe. So I told my new boss what I was doing and as soon as his parents could get me back, I would let him know. His parents were not there when we arrived, so when He left with his girlfriend I called his company commander and he told me to stay with him and try to get him to come back, I told him I had to get back somehow and had no car. He said he would contact my company commander and for me to wait. I told him I hadn't eaten sense I left and eating there food without permission so to hurry, so I could get back.

He never returned and I called his commanding officer again and he told me to get back anyway I could, and thanked me for what I did for him. So I walked uptown and saw a freight train going by so got on it. It had grain, oats I think and I ate some, at least that's what is in my medical file, and that they don't know how I kept from starving to death. Of course something went wrong and I got crushed and only two thing made it all worthwhile; his company commander thanking me on the telephone and his mother coming and telling me and my mom and dad they had just got home and his company commander called and told them what was going on and that I was out trying to get back to base. They found my friend and got him into a hospital and he was doing fine and they gave me a big hug. But my country gave me a temporary discharge with I think 10 days awol. In combat I would have gotten the mental of honor for going above and beyond the call of duty to help another trooper in trouble. But they were nice and pardoned the draft evaders and deserters. So now do you know who was in control of our military and government; That's right the Vietnam war protesters. And they got rid of the draft and allowed the special interest groups get control of our country and now I know what Nikita Khrushchev meant by      "You Americans are so gullible. Trump blaming Clinton for his having a loophole to keep him from paying tax's, because she never tried to get rid of it. It is true, but also true of all those in Congress, she has to say she will now fight to get rid of it and push for a Bill now through her friends in Congress, because the cat is out of the bag and once the Bill is made no one be able to vote against it. You don't need Trump or any president to fix the problem, don't vote for anyone in Congress if a Bill to fix this with five days isn't created. If you vote for any of them
if no Bill is put up for a Vote, Then You are the Gullible..............


No, you won't accept communism outright, but we'll keep feeding you small doses of Socialism until you will finally wake up and find that you already have communism
The special interest groups give us socialism  and spoil us, as they each compete to be supreme or supremacist. So many within each political party have become me people and care about only themselves, so spoiled they will fight for no one, nor risk there life for anyone, become backstabbers, tattle tails, and extremely greedy. Laws creates socialism, and Protections create socialism, and having no respect in your nation creates socialism.



And Bush put us deep in debt with China. .  "We won't have to fight you, we will so weaken your economy until you fall like overripe fruit into our hands."

FREEDOM

New update

I did this update because, after Trump was elected everyone cried unfair, he has ignored the Constitution. Wrong as I wrote below before the election, we all ignored the constitution to make laws that discriminate, violating the main law, " EQUAL JUSTICE FOR ALL." Did we really think it would end any differently, we allowed laws to be made against those we didn't like and never thought others would also ignore the Constitution to go even more to the point perhaps enslaving us someday. We did this to ourselves my friends out of greed, selfishness, and smug ignorance. Both Democrats and Republicans, men, women, race, black whit yellow, We my friends....  

Total freedom is reserved for wild animals, they can eat, are eaten, raped and kill each other without worries of breaking any law. Supremacy is reserved for herds in the totally free world, and Dictators in the  non-free parts of the civilized world. But this kind of freedom is not excepted in the civilized parts of the world honoring real freedom. No one wants to be ruled by the strongest or raped at will by someone stronger. So freedom rules the wild animal world, and equal rights rule the civilized world as it evolves.

So freedom in a free nation is a balance between laws and rights. The more laws we have the less rights we have. So our Constitution clearly says "Equal Justice For All. And we cannot have "Equal Justice for all," if any State makes a law that will cause discrimination against anyone and as our nation evolves I believe more people being discriminated against will receive there freedom Back. Or we will make excuses to get rid of more right's replaced by laws and soon lose all our freedom.

Nikita S Khrushchev  (1894-1971) led the Soviet Union during the height of the Cold War, serving as premier from 1958 to 1964, "Said The United States would become a Communist Nation without firing one shot."  The Sec. of Agriculture of the Eisenhower administration, Nikita Khrushchev said", You Americans are so gullible. No, you won't accept communism outright, but we'll keep feeding you small doses of Socialism until you will finally wake up and find that you already have communism. We won't have to fight you, we will so weaken your economy until you fall like overripe fruit into our hands.

For most of you this makes no sense, but for us who lived those times, knew all about it and I have known for many years after suffering the lies, misinformation, that never got reported on after the Protesters and Nixon turned on our combat troops. They failed to report the protesters that entered the military as office workers and screwed up our combat Troops records and those at the top refused to give bronze stars to those recommended for them; Like, I and four others fighting the enemy all night when incoming was so bad the chopper fighters couldn't fly with just the special forces mortars to fight with to put flares into the sky and fight of mortars and rockets surrounding our perimeter and fire support to defend our troops being overrun. We were recommended for the bronze star by the company D forces commander in Cantho. When the deserters were pardoned a law was made to force the military to update our records and pardon us also and I even gave them our names for the bronze star, it was ignored, but I got an updated discharge from temporary only. 

When the combat troop returned to stateside the nightmare became for many unbearable, for me; I came home with the combat infantryman's badge, we all in combat were so proud of and they tried to force me to give it up, and go to a school to learn how to earn a professional infantry badge. Now, no one could force us to give up our earned badges, so it was all harassment to punish us for fighting in Vietnam. Now, If we could have both metals, then I would have done it, But I would never give up my combat badge or other medals for any reason. I was a Section Sargent on a 105  mounted on a jeep and someone in my section told me he just talked to the company commander and told if he could get my stripes if he could get anything on me so they could get rid of my stripes. Well they finely got my strips because I refused to take that school for that badge.

I had no trust in the military or our government protecting me long before I left Vietnam, but what I and my brother saw and went threw totally destroyed me and him mentally, some say he committed suicide, running his car off an embankment, and I never recovered, whenever I would get close to trust someone would attack me. After I lost my strip, I was sent to a training place at a body shop to learn how to estimate accident cost to become an insurance adjuster that I wanted to become. I just started when a friend told me the CIA was trying to kill him and he needed mental help, but we both were turned down for mental health treatment as they considered it a weakness as Tromp call it, so he wanted me to help get him home, because he couldn't contact them to come and take him to someone who could treat him where he could feel safe. So I told my new boss what I was doing and as soon as his parents could get me back, I would let him know. His parents were not there when we arrived, so when He left with his girlfriend I called his company commander and he told me to stay with him and try to get him to come back, I told him I had to get back somehow and had no car. He said he would contact my company commander and for me to wait. I told him I hadn't eaten sense I left and eating there food without permission so to hurry, so I could get back.

He never returned and I called his commanding officer again and he told me to get back anyway I could, and thanked me for what I did for him. So I walked uptown and saw a freight train going by so got on it. It had grain, oats I think and I ate some, at least that's what is in my medical file, and that they don't know how I kept from starving to death. Of course something went wrong and I got crushed and only two thing made it all worthwhile; his company commander thanking me on the telephone and his mother coming and telling me and my mom and dad they had just got home and his company commander called and told them what was going on and that I was out trying to get back to base. They found my friend and got him into a hospital and he was doing fine and they gave me a big hug. But my country gave me a temporary discharge with I think 10 days awol. In combat I would have gotten the mental of honor for going above and beyond the call of duty to help another trooper in trouble. But they were nice and pardoned the draft evaders and deserters. So now do you know who was in control of our military and government; That's right the Vietnam war protesters. And they got rid of the draft and allowed the special interest groups get control of our country and now I know what Nikita Khrushchev meant by      "You Americans are so gullible. Trump blaming Clinton for his having a loophole to keep him from paying tax's, because she never tried to get rid of it. It is true, but also true of all those in Congress, she has to say she will now fight to get rid of it and push for a Bill now through her friends in Congress, because the cat is out of the bag and once the Bill is made no one be able to vote against it. You don't need Trump or any president to fix the problem, don't vote for anyone in Congress if a Bill to fix this with five days isn't created. If you vote for any of them
if no Bill is put up for a Vote, Then You are the Gullible..............


No, you won't accept communism outright, but we'll keep feeding you small doses of Socialism until you will finally wake up and find that you already have communism
The special interest groups give us socialism  and spoil us, as they each compete to be supreme or supremacist. So many within each political party have become me people and care about only themselves, so spoiled they will fight for no one, nor risk there life for anyone, become backstabbers, tattle tails, and extremely greedy. Laws creates socialism, and Protections create socialism, and having no respect in your nation creates socialism.



And Bush put us deep in debt with China. .  "We won't have to fight you, we will so weaken your economy until you fall like overripe fruit into our hands."

STICKS AND STONES

What have you people done to this nation, that was so tolerant that we laughing sang sticks and stones will break my bones, but words will never hurt me, when someone said anything about us, no matter how derogatory, embarrassing or objective, it was?

When did special interest groups become supremacists? We all know about Trump and the white supremacists, but what about the women Gay supremacists who openly use objective and derogatory and objective slurs to proclaim they can survive without men. Then even straight women like comedian Samantha Dee doing things worse then Trump to be funny at men's expense, like, on her show and commercials standing with her legs apart showing a pair of men's balls hanging between them. This is OK but not for men acting macho as men once did openly like Samantha Dee and women can do now.

Friends, quit pointing finger's for your own agenda, and act like united Americans again, it was whites and Gays who help free the slaves, and blacks and whites who got gay rights. United we stood. Now the Government uses Us like pawns in a chess game to keep us so upset over nothing so they can ignore the Constitution and the greatest law of all, Equal Justice For All;

After the Vietnam war, both Democrats and Republicans made excuses to get rid of Equal Justice For All so they could trick you into allowing them to make laws that cause discrimination and you all fell for it hook line and sinker. People it was those same politicians who cause so many to buy worthless fallout shelter's, created the Red scare, causing so many movie actors to get blacklisted, presidents like Nixon to put up campaign posters portraying a woman who once ran against him a Communist by printing the poster in red and her in pink meaning she was Gay to win. As you can see today, nothing has changed for ether political party. Wake up and learn about the past not to use to hurt or punish people for the past, that's what the government does, but to know when the Government politicians try tricking you, like they have already.

The Government has gotten you to make laws that keep you from saying anything sexual about girls because they will accuse you of being a pedophile or women being accused of being a predictor so how can anyone do any research if we do this to get it all censored. People are we really that dumb or have we been tricked into shutting up, becoming a meek puppet for the government, even telling on those we care about to keep from being put in jail. My friends this is what a Dictatorship of Communist country does to its people.

When we are blind we can't see who is sneaking up on us and when a government goes bad it first has to take away your ability to see how crooked they are and using the news media is more of a diversion then a useful tool. The best tool is censorship, getting rid of the historical news about the crooked things the government has done to its people so everyone in the future thinks there nation has always been a perfect nation, so would never take advantage of us. So unless you keep up with the news stories of the past, you will never know the CIA gave innocent people heron to experiment on its effects and got caught when people started getting killed, jumping from windows thinking they could fly, even giving heron to our troops in combat to make them better killers. Some of the things most today don't know about the Vietnam war was hidden by the new America created by those against the war after they turned everyone against our troops who fought even troops, that were against the combat troops, who did the fighting who got desk jobs and used that job to change the combat troops records to make them look bad, these were the sleaze balls who became our leaders and the special interest groups fighting for power even today, making sure we have no one to vote for.

I have history books with news stories to use to remind me not to put all my trust in those running our government. One of my main books is; "WHAT HAPPENED WHEN" By Gorton Carruth.