To Be a Wiseman

To Be A Wise-man

by

RUSSELL R ELLIS

Having the ability to question everything, over and over again, no matter how sure you are you already have the answers, will you ever become a wise man, because we learn something new everyday and the only way to update the old with the new is to question what we already know. Then there is knowing more about the past, no matter how much you already know, because you will always learn more, and question what you already know to update it all. Then you will need to know both side of all issues and question both side of the issues for the same reason, this way you will know what you really want to support made on  a wise decision.

Now, the wise men and women know already, what happened. They know how the special interest groups were really supremacy groups are out to control their own interest, like the NRA is just about gun sales, to anyone even the enemy, with no loyalty to any Nation at all. They same is true of the different religions, even down to one religion like the Christian religion because the other Christians don't understand that they don't agree on all things and some want total control so if you elect a religion within a christian religion that they all want the same laws, but a wiseman knows many Christians don't realize other Christian religions will want something made against the law, as a sin, they know other Christians believe isn't a sin, causing laws that can force many other Christians to obey laws that force them to sin. But how can they know this if they don't know what the other Christian religions believe in, because there will always be one that wants to rule supreme and even though you don't judge others, they will judge you as there enemy and Gods enemy and will not hesitate to make laws that force you to follow there Christian religion or die. All religions have the ISIS elements within there own religions just like the Islam religion.

This is an instants misunderstood by all people in a civilized worlds, not all people are content or happy with what they have, as there are so many who wish to take it away so they can have power over them and others. These people are never happy with what they get and don't care what they have to do to get it from others hard work.

Now I am not talking about a mans world, this world comes from the wild uncivilized world that men tend to dominate because of strength, but if women could outwit the men they would have that power over them and be dominate, and men know this as well as women in an uncivilized world, because in that world it is doggy eat dog. the difference coming to a civilized world is something called having rights as an urge we all have to be kept from being controlled entirely by men.

But as I said, there are always those looking for a hole to squeeze through to gain enough power to dominate, but not just to women, we see the same thing with some within the communities of the Blacks, Latinos, Lesbians, and other groups of people striving for supremacy, and these underground people cover it all up by pretending to be victims instead of a supremacist group like the KKK. They are trying to take our guns away instead of wanting to even sell guns to our enemy. 

 The Presidential election was not about the issues just within or outside our Nation, but a battle between men and women encourage by women's spacial interest groups and most men saw this as men have been losing rights constantly and being accused of crimes committed by laws to favor women, with even research on men's issues, psychological research on men, or body and sexual chemistry being stopped, so no one would be able to question the woman's claims.

Wisemen from our past saw this coming long ago, as they saw a change the other way, when women were outnumbered by so many men, the men could pick the nicest out there and the others had to beg a man for sex, let alone hope to get one to marry them. They were forbidden to work so were desperate for a man to support them. Then after the big World war they had to give up there Jobs, so men returning home could get one, and go back to being barefoot in the kitchen and having babies.

Perhaps the lesbian movement began at this time, as the Dikes had there pick while the men were away and as time went on and the men returned home, so many none Dike lesbians went back to sex with men. From what I can find out is, during the Vietnam war with men again dying the Dikes had to create special interest groups to trick the people into keeping the men from the having any women when they returned from the war, so they got laws made to keep women from having sex with men, like "look at all the women getting pregnant by men." The answer of course was to have sex with women instead of men. and they used this same theme, to cause the younger women to have sex with the Dikes so the men were left with the older women.  I now see a turn around with this new change in the upcoming men's rights debate demand. Women just went to far and men being hurt by all there changes causing discrimination against men had backfired.

I believe; Hilary, using the lesbian symbol of a woman flexing her manly muscle woke men up and caused them to realize this was a war between men and women.

There were many other things going on during the Vietnam war to change even patriotism in America. allowing deferments to so many to keep them out of the military during the war, then came allowing those dodging the draft to serve stateside if the agreed to enlist, forcing others to have to fight in there place and putting mostly grad students into stateside as officers in charge of the troops they hated for going to war. So many Vietnam war Veterans were discriminated against so bad the committed suicide, cracked up and went AWOL, and were forced to give up medals they had earned fighting, by bullying encouraged by the officers against the war. Then there were those allowed to enlist who could go to Vietnam as spit shine troops who worked the desk jobs.

After the war, we got rid of the draft and pardoned the draft evaders, with promises of upgrading all discharges of those going AWOL, who fought in the Vietnam war, that was never done for most who fought. At the same time the created the Mercenary military, called the all volunteer military, to get rid of the promises by giving higher pay to replace them by crooked politicians, thinking this was all they were worth, but as time went on the old Vets didn't agree, because anyone hurt in combat getting any amount of money should be cared for if wounded. all these things cause a hate blamed on our loss of patriotism. No one in either political party wants to take blame for what happened in this election, you both political parties were the cause of it because of years of corruption the allowed to happen and refused to deal with to the point of even ignoring the motto of our constitution that was a law to make sure we never made a law that would cause discrimination, "Equal Justice For All."

Dementia

Dementia

by

Russell R Ellis

I'm not Russell, I am not me

I'm not Russell, I don't wanna be

I'm not me dear, I'm not a me

I'm just a body, I am not a me

I'm not me dear, I'm not a me

I am dying, I can't be a me

I'm not me dear, I'm not a me

I can't die dear, Waiting for a soul

I'm not me dear, I'm not a me

I'm just a body, awaiting for a soul

I can't be a me dear, I haven't been born yet

I can't be me, I just can't be a me

I can't be a me friend, I can't be a me

I'm a mass of confusion, wondering who is me

Don't do it for me dear, there is no me

He is a stranger, he is not me

I'm not a me dear, I can't be

Just an empty body, looking for a me

Its not me dear, it has no me

I know it is slow dear, but soon I won't be

I won't be friend, I won't be

now I'm happy, as happy as can be

I'll be born again and be a me

so be happy, as happy as baby me

I am

GROWING UP IS WHO WE ARE

by

Russell R Ellis

I was a worthless sperm, killing to get into a women’s womb

I grew up, I made it, I’ll be a baby soon, that’s now what I am

I was a sperm, no longer am, don’t put me into a punishment tomb

It is now the next step, reward me as I grow, it isn't my plan

growing baby, in a woman’s womb, no worries, just bliss

coming out scared to death, digging in my mouth, wham

terrifying urge to breath the breath of life, reward with a kiss

It's always the next step, reward me for who I now am

life will start with urges, curiosity, then an experiment

each stage turns us into a different person as we grow

you will never be that sperm, that stage went

growing up never ends, stages continue, change is slow

from the beginning fate cons the future to punish that sperm of past

it's con is closure, but closure only ends with a quick goodby, move on

forced to be hurt by the terrifying painful challenges created by Gods cast

reward the future, except the past without judging the failures, they are gone

GUILTY BY ASSOCIATION

Why don't we make a law to make, you need to be castrated you, or cut off your balls, against the law, with a 1 year in prison? Not just because of freedom of speech, but because then we would have to put all who say similar things in prison also, men and women; Things like, you need to be raped with a knife in the vagina, or make the N word illegal with 1 year in prison, for the same reason, it would put both blacks and Whites in prison for a year so both Blacks and Whites would have to want that. No law can be made that can't be enforced equally on everyone, yet special interests groups have gotten bad laws made that can't be enforced equally on everyone, and the ones they can't get made legally anymore, they simply make them so a person is guilty by association, so if they say I'll grab your balls, your guilty of enjoying grabbing guys balls or scrotum, or or saying grab your vagina or p_ssy or c_nt.

Guilty by association is something that probably began with religion long ago to keep people from saying what they called bad, nasty, or naughty words. They would associate the word with something nasty and give the bad word a new name, and when they got sick of it made another word they liked and made that other word nasty also. It is called brainwashing. Many remember the days of the Red Scare when all Americans were afraid they would be brainwashed by Russia and later by our own country; CHURCH COMITY, MUST READ, THE RED SCARE INFO. The special interest groups were all exposed of using guilty by association back then, but we got lazy and took our eye off the crooks, creeps, and corrupt within our government and the special interest groups, and they used guilty by association to keep us from discussing, researching and finding the truth, taking away our right to think for ourselves by the censorship this caused.

We were also drugged by encouraging us to enjoy drinking booze that put us into blurring state of not caring about the things we should have been aware of. We won't be the first country leered by creeps and taken over before anyone knew what was going on, and I fear we won't be the last. They simply put us to sleep, with spoil's and turn us into spoiled brats, accusing each other of everything, like we were the only innocent person alive. And we were manipulated like puppets sense the Vietnam war. Students in school were once taught in school social in the 9th grade about  Hate Rumors so we would know if we were being tricked by half truths. Not knowing about hate rumors is what cause us to become victims of guilt by association.

Soon we will wake up and wonder what we allowed to happen. 

 

ATTENTION VETERANS

 ATTENTION VETERANS

LINKS FIXED

Because of an agent orange news update from the VA it appears they have learned that problem was far worse then they thought. I had a website devoted to agent orange but it was destroyed by hackers, so will start one here for you. The VA website is hard to navigate so I will post links to the places you will want to see. First will be the VA main area on  Agent Orange so you can browse around to find more things you might need to see. Then I will list links to important things like the water being contaminated in Camp Lejeune, in North Carolina. So all the Marines from the 1950 through 1980 were exposed to it. In fact it has become so bad that most of us troops were exposed and sounds like everyone of will soon be automatically be service connected for that period of time. Then I will add other stuff you should know about, like Dioxin causes lumps called fatty tissue growing on you body, I have one small one and two large ones, that the dioxin causes. I will add photos from my old website if I can find the copies. Those of you have been told it is fatty tissue but I have one they said was fatty tissue that they now say is a hernia, I think an attempt to change my records, but I have already had one huge one removed from my spine by the VA. Remember those fatty tissues are tumors that can turn into cancer, its just tumors on the outside.

I had 1 like this removed by VA

I have this 1

I have this on the back my neck also

The Ukraine President was poisoned with dioxin by Russia

http://www.reuters.com/article/us-ukraine-yushchenko-dioxin-idUSL118481020080611

VA PUBLIC HEALTH WEBSITE

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CAMP LEJEUNE EXPOSURE
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EXPOSURE LOCATIONS
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EXPOSURE CONDITIONS
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FREEDOM

Total freedom is reserved for wild animals, they can eat, are eaten, raped and kill each other without worries of breaking any law. Supremacy is reserved for herds in the totally free world, and Dictators in the  non-free parts of the civilized world. But this kind of freedom is not excepted in the civilized parts of the world honoring real freedom. No one wants to be ruled by the strongest or raped at will by someone stronger. So freedom rules the wild animal world, and equal rights rule the civilized world as it evolves.

So freedom in a free nation is a balance between laws and rights. The more laws we have the less rights we have. So our Constitution clearly says "Equal Justice For All. And we cannot have "Equal Justice for all," if any State makes a law that will cause discrimination against anyone and as our nation evolves I believe more people being discriminated against will receive there freedom Back. Or we will make excuses to get rid of more right's replaced by laws and soon lose all our freedom.

Nikita S Khrushchev  (1894-1971) led the Soviet Union during the height of the Cold War, serving as premier from 1958 to 1964, "Said The United States would become a Communist Nation without firing one shot."  The Sec. of Agriculture of the Eisenhower administration, Nikita Khrushchev said", You Americans are so gullible. No, you won't accept communism outright, but we'll keep feeding you small doses of Socialism until you will finally wake up and find that you already have communism. We won't have to fight you, we will so weaken your economy until you fall like overripe fruit into our hands.

For most of you this makes no sense, but for us who lived those times, knew all about it and I have known for many years after suffering the lies, misinformation, that never got reported on after the Protesters and Nixon turned on our combat troops. They failed to report the protesters that entered the military as office workers and screwed up our combat Troops records and those at the top refused to give bronze stars to those recommended for them; Like, I and four others fighting the enemy all night when incoming was so bad the chopper fighters couldn't fly with just the special forces mortars to fight with to put flares into the sky and fight of mortars and rockets surrounding our perimeter and fire support to defend our troops being overrun. We were recommended for the bronze star by the company D forces commander in Cantho. When the deserters were pardoned a law was made to force the military to update our records and pardon us also and I even gave them our names for the bronze star, it was ignored, but I got an updated discharge from temporary only. 

When the combat troop returned to stateside the nightmare became for many unbearable, for me; I came home with the combat infantryman's badge, we all in combat were so proud of and they tried to force me to give it up, and go to a school to learn how to earn a professional infantry badge. Now, no one could force us to give up our earned badges, so it was all harassment to punish us for fighting in Vietnam. Now, If we could have both metals, then I would have done it, But I would never give up my combat badge or other medals for any reason. I was a Section Sargent on a 105  mounted on a jeep and someone in my section told me he just talked to the company commander and told if he could get my stripes if he could get anything on me so they could get rid of my stripes. Well they finely got my strips because I refused to take that school for that badge.

I had no trust in the military or our government protecting me long before I left Vietnam, but what I and my brother saw and went threw totally destroyed me and him mentally, some say he committed suicide, running his car off an embankment, and I never recovered, whenever I would get close to trust someone would attack me. After I lost my strip, I was sent to a training place at a body shop to learn how to estimate accident cost to become an insurance adjuster that I wanted to become. I just started when a friend told me the CIA was trying to kill him and he needed mental help, but we both were turned down for mental health treatment as they considered it a weakness as Tromp call it, so he wanted me to help get him home, because he couldn't contact them to come and take him to someone who could treat him where he could feel safe. So I told my new boss what I was doing and as soon as his parents could get me back, I would let him know. His parents were not there when we arrived, so when He left with his girlfriend I called his company commander and he told me to stay with him and try to get him to come back, I told him I had to get back somehow and had no car. He said he would contact my company commander and for me to wait. I told him I hadn't eaten sense I left and eating there food without permission so to hurry, so I could get back.

He never returned and I called his commanding officer again and he told me to get back anyway I could, and thanked me for what I did for him. So I walked uptown and saw a freight train going by so got on it. It had grain, oats I think and I ate some, at least that's what is in my medical file, and that they don't know how I kept from starving to death. Of course something went wrong and I got crushed and only two thing made it all worthwhile; his company commander thanking me on the telephone and his mother coming and telling me and my mom and dad they had just got home and his company commander called and told them what was going on and that I was out trying to get back to base. They found my friend and got him into a hospital and he was doing fine and they gave me a big hug. But my country gave me a temporary discharge with I think 10 days awol. In combat I would have gotten the mental of honor for going above and beyond the call of duty to help another trooper in trouble. But they were nice and pardoned the draft evaders and deserters. So now do you know who was in control of our military and government; That's right the Vietnam war protesters. And they got rid of the draft and allowed the special interest groups get control of our country and now I know what Nikita Khrushchev meant by      "You Americans are so gullible. Trump blaming Clinton for his having a loophole to keep him from paying tax's, because she never tried to get rid of it. It is true, but also true of all those in Congress, she has to say she will now fight to get rid of it and push for a Bill now through her friends in Congress, because the cat is out of the bag and once the Bill is made no one be able to vote against it. You don't need Trump or any president to fix the problem, don't vote for anyone in Congress if a Bill to fix this with five days isn't created. If you vote for any of them
if no Bill is put up for a Vote, Then You are the Gullible..............


No, you won't accept communism outright, but we'll keep feeding you small doses of Socialism until you will finally wake up and find that you already have communism
The special interest groups give us socialism  and spoil us, as they each compete to be supreme or supremacist. So many within each political party have become me people and care about only themselves, so spoiled they will fight for no one, nor risk there life for anyone, become backstabbers, tattle tails, and extremely greedy. Laws creates socialism, and Protections create socialism, and having no respect in your nation creates socialism.



And Bush put us deep in debt with China. .  "We won't have to fight you, we will so weaken your economy until you fall like overripe fruit into our hands."

FREEDOM

New update

I did this update because, after Trump was elected everyone cried unfair, he has ignored the Constitution. Wrong as I wrote below before the election, we all ignored the constitution to make laws that discriminate, violating the main law, " EQUAL JUSTICE FOR ALL." Did we really think it would end any differently, we allowed laws to be made against those we didn't like and never thought others would also ignore the Constitution to go even more to the point perhaps enslaving us someday. We did this to ourselves my friends out of greed, selfishness, and smug ignorance. Both Democrats and Republicans, men, women, race, black whit yellow, We my friends....  

Total freedom is reserved for wild animals, they can eat, are eaten, raped and kill each other without worries of breaking any law. Supremacy is reserved for herds in the totally free world, and Dictators in the  non-free parts of the civilized world. But this kind of freedom is not excepted in the civilized parts of the world honoring real freedom. No one wants to be ruled by the strongest or raped at will by someone stronger. So freedom rules the wild animal world, and equal rights rule the civilized world as it evolves.

So freedom in a free nation is a balance between laws and rights. The more laws we have the less rights we have. So our Constitution clearly says "Equal Justice For All. And we cannot have "Equal Justice for all," if any State makes a law that will cause discrimination against anyone and as our nation evolves I believe more people being discriminated against will receive there freedom Back. Or we will make excuses to get rid of more right's replaced by laws and soon lose all our freedom.

Nikita S Khrushchev  (1894-1971) led the Soviet Union during the height of the Cold War, serving as premier from 1958 to 1964, "Said The United States would become a Communist Nation without firing one shot."  The Sec. of Agriculture of the Eisenhower administration, Nikita Khrushchev said", You Americans are so gullible. No, you won't accept communism outright, but we'll keep feeding you small doses of Socialism until you will finally wake up and find that you already have communism. We won't have to fight you, we will so weaken your economy until you fall like overripe fruit into our hands.

For most of you this makes no sense, but for us who lived those times, knew all about it and I have known for many years after suffering the lies, misinformation, that never got reported on after the Protesters and Nixon turned on our combat troops. They failed to report the protesters that entered the military as office workers and screwed up our combat Troops records and those at the top refused to give bronze stars to those recommended for them; Like, I and four others fighting the enemy all night when incoming was so bad the chopper fighters couldn't fly with just the special forces mortars to fight with to put flares into the sky and fight of mortars and rockets surrounding our perimeter and fire support to defend our troops being overrun. We were recommended for the bronze star by the company D forces commander in Cantho. When the deserters were pardoned a law was made to force the military to update our records and pardon us also and I even gave them our names for the bronze star, it was ignored, but I got an updated discharge from temporary only. 

When the combat troop returned to stateside the nightmare became for many unbearable, for me; I came home with the combat infantryman's badge, we all in combat were so proud of and they tried to force me to give it up, and go to a school to learn how to earn a professional infantry badge. Now, no one could force us to give up our earned badges, so it was all harassment to punish us for fighting in Vietnam. Now, If we could have both metals, then I would have done it, But I would never give up my combat badge or other medals for any reason. I was a Section Sargent on a 105  mounted on a jeep and someone in my section told me he just talked to the company commander and told if he could get my stripes if he could get anything on me so they could get rid of my stripes. Well they finely got my strips because I refused to take that school for that badge.

I had no trust in the military or our government protecting me long before I left Vietnam, but what I and my brother saw and went threw totally destroyed me and him mentally, some say he committed suicide, running his car off an embankment, and I never recovered, whenever I would get close to trust someone would attack me. After I lost my strip, I was sent to a training place at a body shop to learn how to estimate accident cost to become an insurance adjuster that I wanted to become. I just started when a friend told me the CIA was trying to kill him and he needed mental help, but we both were turned down for mental health treatment as they considered it a weakness as Tromp call it, so he wanted me to help get him home, because he couldn't contact them to come and take him to someone who could treat him where he could feel safe. So I told my new boss what I was doing and as soon as his parents could get me back, I would let him know. His parents were not there when we arrived, so when He left with his girlfriend I called his company commander and he told me to stay with him and try to get him to come back, I told him I had to get back somehow and had no car. He said he would contact my company commander and for me to wait. I told him I hadn't eaten sense I left and eating there food without permission so to hurry, so I could get back.

He never returned and I called his commanding officer again and he told me to get back anyway I could, and thanked me for what I did for him. So I walked uptown and saw a freight train going by so got on it. It had grain, oats I think and I ate some, at least that's what is in my medical file, and that they don't know how I kept from starving to death. Of course something went wrong and I got crushed and only two thing made it all worthwhile; his company commander thanking me on the telephone and his mother coming and telling me and my mom and dad they had just got home and his company commander called and told them what was going on and that I was out trying to get back to base. They found my friend and got him into a hospital and he was doing fine and they gave me a big hug. But my country gave me a temporary discharge with I think 10 days awol. In combat I would have gotten the mental of honor for going above and beyond the call of duty to help another trooper in trouble. But they were nice and pardoned the draft evaders and deserters. So now do you know who was in control of our military and government; That's right the Vietnam war protesters. And they got rid of the draft and allowed the special interest groups get control of our country and now I know what Nikita Khrushchev meant by      "You Americans are so gullible. Trump blaming Clinton for his having a loophole to keep him from paying tax's, because she never tried to get rid of it. It is true, but also true of all those in Congress, she has to say she will now fight to get rid of it and push for a Bill now through her friends in Congress, because the cat is out of the bag and once the Bill is made no one be able to vote against it. You don't need Trump or any president to fix the problem, don't vote for anyone in Congress if a Bill to fix this with five days isn't created. If you vote for any of them
if no Bill is put up for a Vote, Then You are the Gullible..............


No, you won't accept communism outright, but we'll keep feeding you small doses of Socialism until you will finally wake up and find that you already have communism
The special interest groups give us socialism  and spoil us, as they each compete to be supreme or supremacist. So many within each political party have become me people and care about only themselves, so spoiled they will fight for no one, nor risk there life for anyone, become backstabbers, tattle tails, and extremely greedy. Laws creates socialism, and Protections create socialism, and having no respect in your nation creates socialism.



And Bush put us deep in debt with China. .  "We won't have to fight you, we will so weaken your economy until you fall like overripe fruit into our hands."

STICKS AND STONES

What have you people done to this nation, that was so tolerant that we laughing sang sticks and stones will break my bones, but words will never hurt me, when someone said anything about us, no matter how derogatory, embarrassing or objective, it was?

When did special interest groups become supremacists? We all know about Trump and the white supremacists, but what about the women Gay supremacists who openly use objective and derogatory and objective slurs to proclaim they can survive without men. Then even straight women like comedian Samantha Dee doing things worse then Trump to be funny at men's expense, like, on her show and commercials standing with her legs apart showing a pair of men's balls hanging between them. This is OK but not for men acting macho as men once did openly like Samantha Dee and women can do now.

Friends, quit pointing finger's for your own agenda, and act like united Americans again, it was whites and Gays who help free the slaves, and blacks and whites who got gay rights. United we stood. Now the Government uses Us like pawns in a chess game to keep us so upset over nothing so they can ignore the Constitution and the greatest law of all, Equal Justice For All;

After the Vietnam war, both Democrats and Republicans made excuses to get rid of Equal Justice For All so they could trick you into allowing them to make laws that cause discrimination and you all fell for it hook line and sinker. People it was those same politicians who cause so many to buy worthless fallout shelter's, created the Red scare, causing so many movie actors to get blacklisted, presidents like Nixon to put up campaign posters portraying a woman who once ran against him a Communist by printing the poster in red and her in pink meaning she was Gay to win. As you can see today, nothing has changed for ether political party. Wake up and learn about the past not to use to hurt or punish people for the past, that's what the government does, but to know when the Government politicians try tricking you, like they have already.

The Government has gotten you to make laws that keep you from saying anything sexual about girls because they will accuse you of being a pedophile or women being accused of being a predictor so how can anyone do any research if we do this to get it all censored. People are we really that dumb or have we been tricked into shutting up, becoming a meek puppet for the government, even telling on those we care about to keep from being put in jail. My friends this is what a Dictatorship of Communist country does to its people.

When we are blind we can't see who is sneaking up on us and when a government goes bad it first has to take away your ability to see how crooked they are and using the news media is more of a diversion then a useful tool. The best tool is censorship, getting rid of the historical news about the crooked things the government has done to its people so everyone in the future thinks there nation has always been a perfect nation, so would never take advantage of us. So unless you keep up with the news stories of the past, you will never know the CIA gave innocent people heron to experiment on its effects and got caught when people started getting killed, jumping from windows thinking they could fly, even giving heron to our troops in combat to make them better killers. Some of the things most today don't know about the Vietnam war was hidden by the new America created by those against the war after they turned everyone against our troops who fought even troops, that were against the combat troops, who did the fighting who got desk jobs and used that job to change the combat troops records to make them look bad, these were the sleaze balls who became our leaders and the special interest groups fighting for power even today, making sure we have no one to vote for.

I have history books with news stories to use to remind me not to put all my trust in those running our government. One of my main books is; "WHAT HAPPENED WHEN" By Gorton Carruth.

BEHAVIOR

Because of special interest groups; our mental health system is so messed up because of contaminated research to hide what is really Normal, a Norm, or Abnormal. like walking on your hands like in the image is a norm, we walk on our feet, that's normal. A norm is something not normal but excepted by society. So I will be dealing with what I learned over the years that is common knowledge about suicide.

Suicide comes right after we reach our breaking point, when the pain is so bad the urge to make it end is all you now want. Its also called Giving up or "I give up" after a fight. It is the point we reach called temporary insanity.

Pain comes in different types like; calm feelings, we are relaxed,  sexual feelings, begin when we become sexually excited, orgasmic pain, another breaking point pain, (caused by good feelings) only ends in an orgasm, caused by an urgent need for more of the nice feelings. annoying pain,  used in interrogation of war prisoners doesn't become painful until it goes on longer and longer, until you can't take it anymore. a drip of water on the nose drip drip drip on and on will get you to tell all, the thought of being tickled, an itch can cause us to break and go nuts, and even cause an orgasm for men even having a prolonged erection can become to much, I find also annoying pain to be the trigger of many suicides. some already have a chronic pain and then annoying pain added makes the pain to much. a breakup at a bad time can cause an annoying pain, the pain by bullies is annoying pain, a pain you just don't need when your close to a breaking point.  chronic pain, A constant bad pain that well make most humans scream. Until we learn what good, bad pain or  that we all have a breaking point, and what our breaking is, then. quit seeing some pain as nasty we will never find the cures needed.

Until we look for the drugs created by our body that cause these pains and feelings then learn how to keep them regulated there will be no hope and we will remain in the model T stage hostage of t
he special interest groups. Look at what testosterone does in deer and tell me to much in men won't cause them to do the same thing. Then look for what would trigger it in men and find what make a female deer so submissive she lets the buck do whatever he wants to her, because if the wrong people find this drug they will make a fortune from selling it, so find it first. These unknown drugs that can be produced by our own bodies can be our own enemy, if we don't understand them.

Darwin did studies on many animals with electric probes one the brain and in one of his experiments he probed the area of anger and found mice would turn on each other when one part was probed trying to kill each other and when probing the other area would become submissive. 

Another ingredient,we need to understand is the difference between life and death, no matter how bad it is, it's better then death. there is no going on with life once we die, yet far to many cause so many to think being robbed, beaten or raped is worse then murder. It isn't!!! It is even no different with killing oneself we can always make it better and we don't need someone giving them a gun thinking they won't use it.

Chemistry, the most important part of our life, is created by our organs, even electricity is created by our organs, in fact that's how our heart is shocked to create each shock to get a beat. The same kind of drugs you get prescriptions for are also created in our body organs. The insulin produced by the pancreas to break down sugar, can change your behavior, causing you to act like a drunk with slurred speech, unable to walk, falling down, and acting confused, without you having any control over it at all, if it isn't balanced. The victims of a diabetic reaction for the first time is so frightening because we refuse to except the fact we have no real control of our own body  and yet we expect others to have the control we don't even have. I also believe that anyone pushing the button causing a person in pain to hurt themselves are criminals and those causing someone to kill themselves are murders.

Moods 

As I said before, until we understand the chemistry of our brain and other body organs we will never learn how to control our moods, yet when we do we will feel bad about all those we sent to a prison or how we supported those who caused people to commit suicide. There are two types of mood causes, like moods caused by outside demons, and the causes of your moods from demons deep inside. The outside demons are those problems cause by others with things you just can't deal with right now. The inside demons come out when you are close to a breaking point everything minor seems major to you, so overwhelming you beg it to slow down. There is no law that says stop or wait, to pause everything until you have gained the strength to deal with everything again.

These moods come from drugs produced inside our bodies, some from the brain, some from other organs that are no longer finely tuned or balanced. Most understand the drug adrenaline that our body produces when we enter a fight or flight situation, like someone attacks you or you almost have an accident and that cold creepy feeling that goes up you spine. This feeling also produces the drugs you need to calm down or counter attack with a vengeance. Many in the military and exposed to combat or ambushes get hooked on adrenaline and come home needing a fix, so do stupid things to get the adrenaline rush, even playing chicken on a highway in a car, anything to get that rush, even abuse, starting fights, even rape if that's what it takes. We are also turned on by sexual chemistry some very potent drugs not only produced by our brain but other body organs like the Vagina, penis, every organ that produces our hormones, so sex isn't a simple act but a violent attack on our bodies and comes from inside and outside our bodies. Testosterone is a drug mostly in men that is so impotent that men with low testosterone who take the drug to get back there masculine look, can not touch a girl or it will cause serious problems for her. As you can see we all men, women, and children produce chemicals that we haven't studied that can cause us to cause others to have problems we don't know about yet, so maybe we are at fault for more then we think.

Booze, is a depressant, and takes away our control, now we should never be blamed for not being in control, but we should be controlled by how much we drink, because that is what causes the lose of control that gets men and women into trouble and so are those who aloud us to drink.

 Psychological warfare

We all think we can't be controlled and that's how they get away with programing us and keep us thinking we are in control of everything. Before I went into the military I loved every race, when I returned I viewed the Asian race, that I expected to hurt me, men, women and children as having no feelings, with a value of being less then an animal we could kick and kill at that time.

 Like the other troops, I was never deprogrammed, and returned home to defend myself from even our own troops against the war serving there non combat time treating me like the enemy that I could kill and then to a nation that I began losing all respect for. I hear your voices dear one's, you could kill someone who never did anything to you personally, yet you can't even hurt the psychos or  psycho bullies walking our streets like common thugs and you don't even have a right to self defense against them.

 These same bullies got rid of EQUAL JUSTICE FOR ALL, and aloud laws to be made that cause people to be discriminated against and we wonder why we have HATE crimes. Those four words are the freedoms I fought for in Vietnam, how could the people be so ignorant they aloud themselves to be programed to hate America the free Nation so many got hurt and even died for and then make laws that discriminate against others and putting these laws on the books to be enforced, that's what we fought to prevent. They even created laws that cause witch hunts and cause our loved ones to report each other to the law enforcement officers or go to jail. Something we were programed in the military not to ever allow in our Nation because it comes from a communist trick to control people by making them think they need protections, without explaining who will protect us from our protectors, like in China or Russia and that was why we were fighting against them, so I can feel the frustration our troops feel who came home to the nation of protection to keep everyone within a bubble and we can't yet find a way out.

So my friends end up in a prison for breaking a law that is unconstitutional, that our dads of world war's 1- 2 would never have aloud, because it took away what was great about America, the right from birth to take a risk or not be punished protecting our loved ones honor, or the right to have privacy, knowing no one is telling secrets about us to the law enforcement, because they will go to prison if they don't, other bad laws created by our lust for protections. This is what Hitler did, and we learned we didn't want anyone taking away our right to take a risk, it always leads to being controlled. We found we liked our right to take the risk and allowed our children to have the same right so they could grow strong and learn from there mistakes.

 Now a new breed of adults who act like little children are herded like cattle by our government, slowly giving up every right we have for laws to protect us from everyone but our protectors!! They forgot one question, who will protect us from our protectors??? We no longer can trust each other, yet there was a time when people from other nations trusted us more then they did people in there own Nation. We could set enjoying a drink and talk and laugh, joke and tell nasty story's and not worry about getting arrested because someone told the police in fear they would get in trouble if the didn't.

The crooks in control of our country used Women and children as propaganda tools to get bad laws made that couldn't be enforced equally, making everyone think they really cared about them and even took a parents right to protect them away, claiming abuse and put the bad children in a jail where they were abused even more then if they were in there own home, and even made everyone including the women and children feel like they were victims, and the way they were herded by those lawmakers makes me wonder if our people became super mentally ill while I was gone. When I left for war Pa could still take off his belt and whip my ass if I did wrong and I never hated him for it, and I was even beat up by him after joining the Army and came home and showed my brother how tough I was, and kicked the snot out of him. "Oh, that's what you learned, this is what I learned" said my Dad, and I thought I was going to die. But I learned to quit showing off as it hurt others and so did my brother. I always loved him for what he was willing to do to help me survive in a cruel world and a bad war.

SWEET-TALKING

This will be my next project; it will explain how we are manipulated by others, even our own politicians can say the sweetest things, that will back-fire on us us feel like dumb fools.

 

My thoughts on religion

ANGLES ARE VERY MEEK

BECOME A LITTLE CHILD